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Oct 8

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Secrets

You know -and you get a kick when you know it, but the very best is that they don’t know you know. And you observe them, like a predator observes its pray, moving careless and unaware of its vulnerability. You savor initially that knowledge with a crooked smile and feel an intense pleasure. Information is power, they say, and information that falls unintentionally on your lap is the most powerful of all…

It is a rush -but the rush evolves and mutates, and most of the time not in a wood way. Is the secret meant to be concealed? Is it meant to be discovered? A secret is (almost) never a good thing, and (almost) always conceals some harm, some betrayal or some deceit…

As you are damn good collecting secrets as you are keeping them, the question remains…what do you do, then, when the rush settles and the the pain of those secrets smack you in the face?

How do you keep playing the secret?

Photo: x-shadow.livejournal.com

Sep 8

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Don´t forget


Remember to be true,  to others,  but mostly to yourself.
Don´t fall. Don´t let them push you and make you fall.
Be who you are and stay strong.

Like a child chewing the top of a pencil,
frowning,
deeply thinking,
concentrate and don´t forget:
either you do different things, or you do things differently.

Aug 27

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Implosion

It doesn´t hurt, but I feel it physically in my body. It is like an implosion in my deepest core, bending my body at the waste. My chest fills with air, my breath stops until I sneak my face  from behind in between your hair and I exhale “I love you”

It doesn´t hurt, it doesn´t,
but even if it did… I wouldn´t want it any other way.

 

Aug 24

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Cats and dogs

Photo by Daniel Chowen

By instinct she leans over to pick a bag of cat food, but then again she remembers she doesn´t have a cat -that the cats that used to come to the house are long gone. There is no more purring, no more scratching, no more biting – at least not in that way, anyway. The small flap door has been replaced by a solid door that she has painted and make it look beautifully in harmony with the house.

It is Friday and she is alone, and right there in the middle of the store her back aches, because she is still leaning over the bag of cat food and who the hell puts those bags on the lower shelf and her back makes a “pop” when she stands straight while she mumbles that she is way too damn old for this shit.

The sensor flashes as she leaves the store and the doors shush open to opposite sides. She sees his tail wagging immediately as he sees her.

She smiles.

She pets him lovingly.

“Let´s go, buddy… Let´s go home”

 

 

Jul 30

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Summer dictionary

Things with great significance this summer. Since I am still in a lazy post vacation modus, I don´t do alphabetically… Not that is important anyway, right?

Paradise: my parents beach house that is. Being some meters from the warm sand, the waves that put me to sleep every night…

Family: no drama, no fighting – just chilling this year (thank you happy pills)

Bleach: this year my mother wins an special award for ruining just 1 pair of shorts. Honorable mention for 2 missing socks.

Gossip club: 13 minutes into the first day I know who is who, who is doing what, where, how and/or who. Rule nr. 1 is to position your beach chair strategically in the sand. Also, minimum age is 73, I think – but I got VIP gold membership at the end of our stay.

Friends: one specially, Mireia, my true and closest – can´t tell how much I love her in just a few words…

Life guard: The usually big-like-a-closet and experienced guys that come from Argentina to work the Spanish summer were replace for this cute as a button, 40 kg young  out of school boy. No need to say that he was the laughing stock every single day he walked pass the Gossip Club.

Money: I have spent a lot… No need to say more.

Sexy time: Zero; well, honestly, some 30% flying solo.

Goosebumps: nothing like bathing naked, really… Take your suit off in the water and feel. One of the best sensations ever. Not good only when one of your kids run out of the water towards the next beach and I had to walk naked a couple of hundred meters to get him. That day I got fired from the Gossip club or I got my VIP gold membership status… Still not sure.

Shameless: this show, the American one, was my real entertainment way before falling sleep. Genius!!

Movie: This year, the movie date for the girls features “Moonrise Kingdom” and pink popcorn. Super sweet and funny. Was Instagram to have a movie, it would be this one.

Rain: back in Bergen, kids are out for some days and I am alone. I feel alone. Vacation is over. I feel blue, more that the sky I long for.
The last one, but not the least one:

Mr. Incredible: He decides to buy a Volkswagen Up!, basically a backpack with wheels, and I change his name from AttentionWhore to Mr. Incredible. 4 days and I will be in his arms…

How about your summer? What words would describe it?

Jul 10

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Closed for vacation (I think….)

 

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Jun 17

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Tonight

I will leave the door open
and the lights off
quietly waiting for you.

I will crumple the sheets
tight under my fist.

Tonight
I will taste salt
while you taste sugar
my skin arching in the dark
making shadows.

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